TOKYO GHOUL R
(A Tokyo Ghoul Fanfiction by Lady Storykeeper)
DIARY OF A ONE-EYED GHOUL
October 10, 2014
Today is my last night here in the hospital.
It has been a couple of weeks since that incident… but how strange it felt… it almost seems like the events of that whole day with Mr. Riku were something that never really happened.
I am happy to finally go home… but, I still feel that there is something really wrong with me.
My dinner looked really good, but the moment I took a small bite it tasted horrible… even the pudding tasted like glue. Doctor Kanou assured me that it was the side effect of the medications that I have been taking.
But still….I’m so hungry!
October 12, 2014
I’m finally home...
But… I feel so drained… when I got home Hi-chan left me a note and a bag of things I would love to eat including my favorite, Hamburgers.
Hi-chan… you always have been there for me… thank you so much… but…I’m sorry….
I’m just hungry… so very hungry….
October 14, 2014
Hi-chan called me again today, but I didn’t answer. It’s strange… I can write down all of my pains here in this journal but I can’t tell it to my best friend…. It hurts so much… I wish I could go to him right now… I miss him so much…
October 15, 2014
I’M NOT A GHOUL!!! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! I’M HUMAN! (A.N. She wrote this in two whole pages)
October 18, 2014
I almost killed him…
I almost killed Hi-chan… the only person who has been by my side for a long time… my best friend.
The past few days has been so messed up… Riku’s organs were implanted into me… my body is slowly becoming like a ghoul, the evidence was on my left eye which changes into a like that of a Ghoul, I had to wear an eye patch just to cover it.
Ms. Kirishima…. And the people working in Anteiku… they’re all ghouls.
And this morning this crazy ghoul named Nishio Nishiki, who was a 2nd year in our school, attacked both me and Hi-chan. He wanted to get back at me for invading his territory… He was really strong, I was no match for him. But then… he was going to kill Hi-chan… I couldn’t let him kill Hi-chan… I won’t let him… then everything went red… it felt strange but I swear I could hear Riku talking to me, egging me on to eat… my hunger was getting the best of me… and if Touka chan hadn’t come at that moment… I would have…
What am I now? I’m no longer human… nor do I wish to be a Ghoul…. I’m alone.
The manager… he asked me to come and work for them at Anteiku… if I do… then perhaps I will find out where I truly belong.
October 20, 2014
What a day I had. I have started working part-time in Anteiku… it was hard at first… mostly I need to make sure I did the coffee right. Hi-chan is doing fine… he doesn’t really know what happened to us in the alley, he just assumed that we all got into an accident. It’s better this way. The less Hi-chan knows the better.
The Manager has been so kind and patient… not only has he taught me about how to be a good barista/waitress… he has also been teaching me on how to mingle properly with humans. Touka chan is tough and a bit scary, but she really looks out for me and makes sure I do things right. I also got to meet Mr. Yomo, the one who supplies their food. The food they get are from suicide victims. Even though it’s still hard to swallow…. I am slowly learning to accept my new situation.
In a way it also gave me a new perspective about Ghouls. I felt ashamed… because before I have always thought of them as nothing more than monsters… but if you look more closely… they are just like humans. Maybe it’s because of after meeting Mrs. Reiko Fueguchi and her daughter Hinami it got me to thinking about this.
I wonder… if the manager is right… will I have a place in both this two worlds?
I hope so…. I really hope so.
(NORMAL STORY MODE)
Kaoru placed her pen and journal down on top of her small table. She walked straight to her room and collapsed on her bed. Tomorrow she and Touka are meeting at the station to head towards the 4th ward, for Kaoru to have a mask made for her. She wondered though why did she need one, and what were they talking about ‘Doves’?
She buried her face in her pillow and slowly drifted off to sleep. The last thing on her mind was that she better not be late or else Touka would kill her.
Looking at her watch, Kaoru let out a sigh of relief as she saw she arrived just in time. Suddenly she was kicked from behind… stumbling at first she then turned around and saw that the perpetrator was none other than Touka.
“W-what was that for?” Kaoru asked.
Touka didn’t say anything… instead started to walk away. Kaoru sighed before following her. They walked in silence, Kaoru looking around and observing the unfamiliar streets and old vandalized buildings they were passing by. Soon they entered an old building, the two girls walked down the stairs towards a well-furnished door . Kaoru noticed a signboard next to the door that read ‘Hy Sy Artmask Studio’.
“I wonder what we’re going to do here?” pondered Kaoru. Touka opened the door and walked in as she called out, “Uta!” As Kaoru entered the room, her eyes widened at what she saw, inside the room were several mannequins all wearing different types of masks… there were glass displays showing other types of masks, even the walls were adorned with masks. “Wow!” whispered Kaoru as she looked around the room in great awe. Touka was still looking around the place and calling out, “Are you here?” She sighed and mumbled, “Geez, don’t tell me he’s asleep?”
Kaoru continued to look around and she stopped in front of a cloth covered mannequin. Curiosity getting the best of her, she slowly lifted up the covers only instead of a plastic statue; a young man’s face was looking straight at her and calmly says, “BOO!”
Touka quickly turned around at the sound of Kaoru’s scream. Seeing who it was that surprised the eye-patched teen, she smiled and asked, “What are you doing, Uta?”
Kaoru, who fell on the floor, looked up at Touka in surprise before quickly looking back at the young man who was sitting on top of the display table.
Uta looked at Touka calmly saying, “I thought I would surprise you.” He got off the table he was sitting on and walked towards his desk. He calmly sat again on a chair and watched silently as Kaoru stood up.
Touka took off her jacket and introduced the young man to Kaoru, “This here is Uta. He will be the one to make your mask.”
“I’m Uta.” He said giving a curt not to Kaoru.
Kaoru couldn’t help but feel slightly nervous around the man…He has tattoos all over his body and and he had piercings on his face, looking at his eyes you already know he is a ghoul as the pupils are red and the sclera are black. Realizing she has been staring too long she blushed and gave a full bow as she blurted out, “I-I’m Kaoru Kaneki! Nice to-“
She stopped her sentence and panicked as Uta moved closer and started sniffing around her neck.
“You smell quite unusual.” Said Uta, he looked at Touka and continued, “Touka, to my understanding the doves are on the prowl, right?”
“Yes.” Answered Touka.
“The 20th ward is nice and quiet, and they used to leave us alone here.” He remarked while grabbing Kaoru, who was slowly backing away from him, by her collar and bringing her closer to him as he continued to smell her. “I’m guessing this has to be because of Riku.”
“Tsukiyama seems to be pressing his luck lately, too.” Touka added crossing her arms and looking serious.
“Ah, yes, him.” Uta said as he took a hold of one of Kaoru’s pigtails and played with it a bit.
“Um…” Kaoru slowly asked, “Is the 20th ward considered more peaceful than the rest? I wouldn’t know.” She fidgeted a bit and looked away to avoid the man’s silent stare.
“You’ll understand once you try living somewhere for a bit.” Uta said, he leaned closer to her, his eyes widened he continued, “If you like, you can stay here for the night. And if you’re lucky, you may see some cannibalism, and that’s always fun.”
“N-No… I think I’ll pass. “Kaoru stuttered nervously as she tried to pull away, but Uta has a strong grip on her dress. He eventually let go and stood up saying, “Must be great for you that there’s a place like Anteiku.”
Uta then pointed at a small cart and chair as he said, “Sit over there. I’ll take your measurements.” Kaoru nodded and walked over to the cart, she sat down as Uta came behind her carrying a sketchbook. He started sketching. “Do you have any allergies?” he asked. “No, Sir.” Kaoru replied.
“What about Rubber or metals?”
“Do you want a full face mask?”
“Um… well” Kaoru began but was quickly interrupted by Uta as he walked around to face her. He crouched down while looking at her face as he said, “It’s your first one, so maybe a half mask will do instead.” He went back to drawing some sketches. “O-Oh sure…”said Kaoru nervously, even though Uta’s voice sounds friendly she still felt uneasy being near him.
Uta looked at Kaoru and remarked, “The eye patch is cute. Do you like them?”
“Oh, um…” she took off her eye patch as she said, “Whenever I get hungry, my eye turns red, regardless of whether or not I want it to.” “So it’s fine whenever you’re full then, right?” Uta said. He pulled out from his pants pocket an eyeball and offering it to the young girl asking “would you care for a snack?”
Kaoru flinched a bit as she said, “I-I’m fine, thank you.”
Uta then stood up and was looking at his sketch when he asked, “Kaoru, do you have a boyfriend?”
“Huh?!? N-no I don’t” Kaoru blurted out, her cheek suddenly blushing.
Still not looking at her, Uta remarked, “You’re one of those, you know…. The type of girl who gets easily bullied and the one that older men would love to get their hands upon and do all sort of things with.” Kaoru gulped nervously at what Uta said and seeing the man lick the eyeball like it was a piece of candy.
“U-um…” Kaoru asked, “do these questions have anything to do with this?”
“They do.” Replied Uta, while getting a measuring tape from the drawer. “I feel more motivated once I get to know the person better.” He then went to grab another small chair as he sat behind Kaoru. “What do you think of Touka?” He asked calmly. Kaoru looked at him in surprise and replied, “Um… well… she’s ok… but she is kinda scary.”
“Scary? You really think so?” asked Uta as he started to measure Kaoru’s head. “I find her to be a hard worker.”
“A hard worker?” Asked Kaoru.
“For us to blend into human society, we need to have a mask that we never take off.” Uta said, “The more we get involved, the more seamlessly we have to blend in. If we’re suspected for even a moment, we’re done for. She lives her life fully aware of that risk. Not only with her job at Anteiku, but even going to school as well.”
“What reason could she have for being so involved with Humans?” Kaouru wondered.
“That’s a good question.” Remarked Uta. “But whenever a human customer comes into my shop, my pulse races faster than usual.” He said placing a hand around the tattoos engraved on his neck. “It’s hard to explain… but it’s enjoyable.” He whispered the last part near Kaoru’s ear.
Touka-chan and I returned to Anteiku to start our shift. While I was dressing up, I kept thinking about the things Uta said. I never knew how hard it must be for Ghouls… to try to mingle with Humans… but at the same time trying their best to conceal themselves. Touka-chan explained to me the importance of masks for Ghouls and also about the Doves they were talking about. The Doves were actually the CCG or The Commission of Counter Ghoul… they were the special force that investigate and exterminate ghouls. I’ve heard about them a couple of times on the news. They may be considered as protectors for Humanity… but for Ghouls they’re dangerous. Touka-chan seems to really hate them. Another thing that was on my mind is how hard the people at Anteiku all work just to survive… as for me… I have done absolutely nothing… I feel so useless.
I looked at the door of the room where Hinami-chan is right now. She was another thing that I was troubled over. When she and her mother arrived at Anteiku a couple of days ago, I saw how sad she looked. Touka-chan told me that she had to be far away from her dad for a while. I felt empathy for her… I know what it was like not living with your father. She must really miss him… I may not do much but I should try and cheer her up.
I took a deep breath and told myself that I can do it… I put on my biggest smile as I entered the room.
Maybe I should have knocked first…
Kaoru’s face has changed to pure horror at what she sees before her. Sitting on the couch, Hinami was eating a piece of bloody flesh, her eyes changed and her mouth smears of blood were visible. Hinami herself was shocked to see the eye-patched teen.
Kaoru screamed as she fell back on the floor, she quickly stood up and with a quick bow ran out the room screaming, “UM… I…. PLEASE TAKE YOUR TIME!”
“So you saw her eating did you?” asked Enji Koma, another waiter at Anteiku. “That’s not good, Kaoru-chan… after all being a girl yourself, you should know how embarrassing it feels if someone watches you eat.”
Kaoru looked down on the floor looking more ashamed, “Yeah… you’re right.”
“Here!” Kaoru looked up and saw that Koma was holding a cup of hot coffee, the man gives a friendly smile and wink as he said, “Take this to her and apologize.”
“Ok… thank you.” Kaoru said giving a small smile and gently taking the cup upstairs.
“Hinami-chan, may I come in?” Kaoru asked after knocking on the door. “Yes.” Said Hinami softly.
Kaoru entered the room and saw that Hinami is now reading a book, her eyes returning to normal. Kaoru gave a sheepish smile as she said, “Sorry about earlier…” She then approached Hinami and set down the cup of coffee as she continued, “um… here is a token of my apology. Well then… please take your time.” She bowed before heading towards the door.
“U-Um….” Hinami-chan whispered.
Kaoru turned to look at the little girl, “Yes, what is it?”
“Um… well… Oneechan…” Hinami looked down on her lap as if struggling on whether or not to ask, “which are you?”
“Huh?” Kaoru said, she then realized the meaning of Hinami’s question and looked away trying to find the right words to say to the child. “Um… well I…”
“Oh, I’m sorry!” cried Hinami, “Your smell is just different from the others. If you were like us, I’d be able to tell, even from far away.”
Kaoru gave a gentle sad smile to Hinami as she said, “A lot of things has happened to me, you see. I’ve partially got a ghoul’s body. So if I had to say now, I think I’m closer to what you are, Hinami-chan.”
Kaoru was now scratching her cheeks looking a bit embarrassed as she continued, “You could say that my mind is Human but my body is that of a Ghoul.”
“I’m sorry.” Hinami said looking down at her laps again, “I shouldn’t have asked.”
Kaoru smiled and shook her head, “It’s all right… don’t worry about it.” Kaoru then noticed the notebook on the table and saw an adorable drawing of a bear with a scarf. “Oh what a cute drawing you made. What kind of animal is that?”
“Huh? Um, it’s my father.” Hinami replied looking away smiling.
“Oh I see….” Kaoru exclaimed, “it’s really good.” Hinami’s smile widened at her praise. Kaoru then thought of her own father as she whispered, “Your father, huh?” Hinami looked at her confused at what she said before Kaoru again shook her head and smiled. “Oh… it’s nothing. I hope that you can live with him again soon.”
“Yeah…” said Hinami.
“Oh… That’s ‘MONOCHROME OF RAINBOWS’ isn’t it?” Kaoru said noticing the book that Hinami was holding.
“Huh… oh yeah.” Hinami replied.
“Hinami-chan, you read Takatsuki’s books?” Kaoru asked excitedly. “That’s really incredible, considering how difficult they are. Oh, but those are short stories so they’re relatively easy.” She said before smiling down at the girl and asked, “Hinami-chan, which is your favorite story?”
“Um… ‘Little Night… Raintime’…” Hinami said.
“‘Little Night Raintime’? Oh you mean ‘Showers at Sunset’. It served as the prototype for ‘EGG OF THE BLACK SHEEP’. “ Kaoru said.
“Pro-type? ‘Showers at Sunset’?” Hinami said slowly she then opened her book and pointed to a word on the page, “Um… how do you read this?” She asked.
Kaoru looked at the page and said, “That’s read as ‘Hydrangea’.”
“Hydrangea? As in the flower?” Hinami asked. “That’s right.” Answered Kaoru.
“Th-Then what about this one?” Hinami again asked pointing to another word. “That is written like ‘Thin Ice’ but pronounce ‘Verglas’.”
“Verglas…” Hinami repeated. Kaoru nodded as she continued saying, “But at other times it can also be read as ‘glazing’. That one actually has a pretty ring to it, doesn’t it?”
Hinami’s smile widened and said “Yeah!”
“Hydrangea…Showers at Sunset….” Hinami mumbled as she scribbled the words on her notebook.
“How admirable.” Kaoru said, “You’re even taking notes.”
“I-I don’t go to school, so I write the things that I learn in here.” Hinami said.
“I see…” Kaoru said, “I have an idea, Hinami chan…. Do you want me to teach you words like this whenever you come by?”
“You really mean it?” asked Hinami excitedly.
“Yeah!” Kaoru said smiling at the little girl.
“Oneechan…. Thank you very much.” Hinami happily said.
Outside the room, Touka smiles as she silently watches the two girls bond. She had to admit… the girl Kaoru seems to have a special way of making people smile without her realizing it. She then walks away as the two girls continue with the reading lessons.
Meanwhile, in a dark alley in another part of the city, two ghouls were in deep conversation, one looked injured.
“Eh?!? Box carriers in the 20th ward?” The injured Ghoul exclaimed in disbelief.
“Yeah,” answered his companion, “it’s not your lucky day huh?”
“Yeah.” Said the injured Ghoul, nursing his wounded arm, “You can’t call the 20th ward safe anymore. Damn it hurts.”
“That Gourmet guy has been on a tear lately,” added his friend, “So I bet he attracted them.”
The injured Ghoul then noticed the bandage on his friend’s face and neck, “Did a dove to that to you?”
“No this is from something else.” His friend replied.
“Gah, it hurts!” The injured Ghoul cried out holding unto his injured arm.
“Shut up, will you!” said his friend in an annoyed tone. “You should have Dr. Fueguchi have a look at you.”
The Ghoul watched in horror as his friend was suddenly slashed into half by an unseen weapon. Emerging from the shadows was two men in white coats carrying suitcases, one young and one old. The old man smiled in a twisted manner saying, “You need to use scum in order to catch scum, right?” “Yes.” Replied the young man.
The Ghoul, soaked in his friends blood, stood frozen in terror as he realized who they were, “It can’t be…”
The old man smile widened in anticipation as he said, “Now then, I wonder… what kind of scum will this scum get us?”
On the streets of the 20th ward a young man is walking down the streets humming happily.
In Anteiku, Kaoru and the others are busy preparing the shop for their customers. The bell attached to the door jingled as Hinami and her mother Reiko entered.
“Good Morning, Everyone!” said Hinami cheerfully before bowing. Reiko also gave a courteous bow, Hinami skipped in front of Kaoru with a smile and greeted, “Good Morning, Kaoru Oneechan!”
“Good morning, Hinami-chan!” Kaoru cheerfully greeted back. Touka smiled as she watched the two, feeling very grateful to Kaoru.
The mother and daughter then entered the Staff room, Koma then gave the thumbs up to both girls.
Touka smiled before looking at Kaoru sternly saying, “What are you so gaga about, dummy? Get back to work.”
“Oh… Um… yes!” said a startled Kaoru as she went back to wiping the table.
Suddenly the bell jingled again, all the staff turning to greet the new arrived customer.
“Welcome!” greeted Kaoru. Suddenly all the staff (excluding Kaoru’s face) changed to shock as they saw who it was.
Kaoru’s eyes widened as she stared at the young man who just entered the coffee shop.
He spread out his arms as he inhaled deeply. He then exhaled as he said in a silky tone, “What a fine aroma.” He caressed his nose for a bit before opening his eyes and looking at the staff, “I really do feel more….relaxed here.”
“It’s that guy…” Kaoru thought, “the one I met before my date with Riku.”
“Tsukiyama!” growled Touka.
The man known as Tsukiyama continued to take a whiff around the place before greeting Touka in a friendly manner, “It’s been a while, Kirishima.”
Touka scowled before continuing wiping the counter as she said, “What do you want?”
“Friendly as always, I see.” Tsukiyama chuckled not at least bothered by the cold response. “Though I suppose it’s a charming point of yours.”
“You’re sickening, you pig!” Touka spat out.
Kaoru looked at her co-worker and wondered why she was being rude to the man.
Tsukiyama merely smiled before he noticed Kaoru. “Well, Well, Well!” He exclaimed, “I would never have thought to see you again my little Bella.”
“Oh… Um hello again.” Greeted Kaoru, as Tsukiyama approached her and leaned a bit to her face. “What a surprise to see you here.... are you a new worker here at Anteiku?”
“Um… yes…” Kaoru replied looking a bit nervous. Tsukiyama smiled as he said, “You know the last time we met, you left in such a hurry, I never got to know what your name is, Mademoiselle?”
Kaoru couldn’t help but blush at the closeness of the handsome man’s face, she looked down as she stuttered… “M-my name is Kaoru Kaneki.”
Kaoru’s heart beat even faster as Tsukiyama leaned even closer and took a whiff from her neck.
“Her scent…. It changed… it has even become more exquisite!” thought Tsukiyama.
Touka then moved in between Tsukiyama and Kaoru, she glared at the blue-haired man angrily as she said, “Hey you! You’re being a nuisance, not to mention gross. Take a hike already!”
Tsukiyama chuckled saying, “A bit harsh, aren’t we?” He gently pushed Touka aside and took Kaoru’s hand. “I’ll be back some other time for a cup of coffee. Yoshimura should be here the next time I’m around.” “Um… Okay…” stuttered a blushing Kaoru still unsure what to do at that moment. He smiled before giving a small peck on the back of Kaoru’s hand, causing the eye-patch girl’s blush to intensify. Touka was ready to roadhouse kick the man when Tsukiyama quickly stepped back and turned to take his leave.
“Charmed to meet you, “He stopped by the door as he said, “Farewell Bella Kaoru…. Until we meet again.”
Kaoru sighed and tried to calm her beating heart as well as trying to cool her flushing cheeks.
Kaoru looked up at Touka who had an irritated look on her face, “Since when did you become cozy with Tsukiyama?”
“N-N-N-No… it’s not like that!” cried Kaoru shaking her head as she continued, “I only met him once… we bumped into each other by chance but that’s all!”
Touka glared at Kaoru before giving another sigh and said, “Honestly… you really have a knack of attracting creepy guys….” She then looked Kaoru seriously as she said, “Listen to me Kaoru… be careful around that guy… he’s the scourge of the 20th ward.”
Kaoru nodded silently before staring at the hand where Tsukiyama kissed.
“And here we have a national specialty, the eye of virgins.”
In the elegant restaurant with only numerous candle lights brightening up the place, Tsukiyama savors a slice of the elegant dish that was served to him.
The blue-haired man gazes at the candles flames as he reminisce the young eye-patched teen.
“Kaoru Kaneki…. How utterly captivating ….” Tsukiyama whispered, “that scent of hers.”